Today I left work early because I wasnt feeling well, ran some errands came home & took a great nap! This explains why im not sleeping right now lol. While Ive been paying bills etc, I happened to look on my desktop and saw the video that my friends made me, for my graduation. Its been a couple months, and I still cant keep back the tears when watching it. I love everyone that contributed to it. Watching the video makes me proud to be me & PROUD to call all of you my friends. I would not be the person I am today if it wasn't for you. I would never have embarked on my journey out of Palm Beach, if it wasn't for the support of my friends. If you've read this blog or know me personally you can tell I am not that close to my family, which is why my friendships are so important to me. I want you to know that I sincerely appreciate you and your friendship, love & support. I am proud to be the person I have grown to be and I plan to continue to grow.
The next step in my journey is writing the letter to my social worker to have her "TRY" to contact my biological father. No... I still have not done this. I think im afraid that it wont happen, and this will be the end. After the social work sent 3 separate letters to my birth mother and she never responded, I still had hope because I had the thought that although she apparently wanted nothing to do with me, maybe my father would. I always wondered if he wanted a daughter would be his "daddy's girl". But if I send that letter, and he doesnt respond either, or rejects me..... I dont know what I'll do. This is such a large part of me, without the hope...... I wont be the same. I feel that if this happens, I would change as a person. BUT we will see. I hate that im wasting time, because you never know what could happen. Well, its getting late, work in the morning, thank you for reading!
